It was a better week on the personal front. Ran twice, first runs in 2021. Mediated once, first in 2021. Cajoled R into making a decision on the car, one way or the other. Rested and read. Slipped a bit on the sleep front, made up a bit today.
The black spot was the weight. Recorded a high weight of 91.3kg, and a high weekly average of 90.8kg.
Step target streak completed a year yesterday.
100 consecutive days of learning Spanish on Duolingo.
100 consecutive days of climbing at least 10 floors1 a day. Average daily floors climbed over the period: 33.
100 consecutive days of recording weight (Google forms) and food intake (Myfitnesspal).
100 consecutive days feels like a good number to celebrate streaks.
How many days is it since we returned from vacation?
I couldn’t run much over the summer due to an injury I’ve been carrying since spring (and done nothing about).
So, to make up for the lost miles, I ended up doing a long step goal streak on my Garmin. I started the streak with a step target of 8731.
With the default setting, Garmin automatically adjusts the step target up/down based on how you did the previous day. So, just achieving the target increases the goal only by a few dozen steps. Go overboard, and exceed the target by a few thousand steps, and the next days goal will jump by a few hundred steps.
As expected, very quickly, I started planning so that I didn’t exceed the goal by much. It couldn’t be managed on many days – Monday track runs, Thursday club runs, and weekend chores meant those days usually ended anywhere from 50% higher to even 2x. Still, I tried on the days I could.
I ended the streak [^1], 74 days later, with a step target of 15,223.
Now that we’re back from holiday, and I’m starting to give running another go, I still wanted to keep up the steps. But, tired of being scared of an ever increasing target, I decided to go with a static target of 12,000 steps a day.
It’s a good, high-ish step goal, yet not one that I’d have to really slog on non-run days to achieve like those 14000+ targets were.
On 5 of 6 days since starting this new streak, I’ve ended up with 3000+ steps over target. Success.
Also, a problem.
While the Garmin watch has been configured to keep the target static, my head has not.
Over the long streak period this summer, my brain got conditioned to expecting a higher step goal of I exceeded the target by a lot. So, everyday, once the days steps start heading north of 13-14K, I start feeling mild, subconscious panic.
The conscious knows that the goal won’t change, but the subconscious has been trained to be afraid of exceeding it by much.
It’s pain from overtraining. Of my brain. In response to a stimuli that doesn’t represent a threat anymore.
Conditioning. Fear. Garmin step target. Buggers all!
After 57 days of step goal streak…
And doing the hard work of a long walk in the day, distant parking at Tesco, and a post dinner walk…
I missed today’s step target by 38 steps! Fuck fuck fuck!!!
A trip to the loo would’ve sorted that out! Instead I sat down in front of the idiot box and forgot about the target till after the clock had hit 12!
Just 2 days to go for a 2 month streak, and I blundered like that!
Fucking idiot! Fuck! Fuck! FUCK!!!